Why i say that is because..since thursday night, my trusty G-shock gave up on me, just because i dropped it. I guess shock resistance can only go that far, dropped too many times..i think it have been in service for 3 years to 5 years?, seriously i cannot remember, i only remember my mom bought it for me @ $90. Time to retire you into the box.

Yesterday went to lot 1's City Chain, they suck, very much! They like to bring in expensive models, and are over priced. Compare the MSRP from G-shock's webby, they are $100 more expensive for certain models, wow, $100?? i didnt noe USD's inflation rate so high these days, stupid rip offs. No choice, my budget is below $200...

Next day..which is today..around 3pm+ i went to Bukit Panjang Plaza! For wat? To look at watches lah! hahas...and guess wat, i fell in love with these 2 watches..



and..



Well..there are many nicer models out there..but they dont have them in stock, and these 2 are the most appealling to me!!

It was really difficult to choose..i like the milky Mudman, the Illuminator is pretty cool, shining on the outer ring and on the screen panel itself, but the downfall is..the buttons are extremely difficult to press...its a big watch..but i had to squeeze with quite an amount of strength before i can navigate the menus, wonder y they built it like this..maybe they built it for superman, he can press it with ease, but not me!

so i opted for the black 1, it was moderately stylish..black and gold/yellow, 1 of my favourite colour combinations, the screen's background is black as well, making the numbers and word the opposite, which is white. Kinda cool, never had this setup b4. Wat is even more interesting about this watch is..apparently it was built for atheletes? the Stopwatch function is crazy, got 3 columns of timings, and even Lap numbers, i need to read the manual first..its too difficult to understand just by looking. And theres also the BEST LAP RECORD function! wow..cool! i guess i can put this to use for measuring travelling time..hehe, see the best time of the MRT train to SP =D~~

The buttons are also easier to press, and thats why i got it..=D..for $137 only, screw lot 1's city chain, i got it at ur branch in bukit panjang plaza, dumbasses!

Hehes..here it is!!




I used my Nike "KIDS'" Watch i won from my 2006 graduation dinner's lucky draw..though they mentioned its a men's watch..its actually classed as Kid's watch by Nike.

Heres how it looks like..



Its too small for my big wrist, makes my wrist look like crap!! I think i am gonna give it away...Its only worth like $50 bucks back when i won it..

Hahas, just for fun, heres the winning ticket..=D! And to those gambling addicts..sorry, 3 numbers only, no 4D for u! :P




Lalala..soo happy, gonna go play now..study later!! Byes!



Urgh, the timetable realli makes me sick. Monday is already generally considered the worst day for all students already and they have to make mine worse..though it doesn't starts very early, 10am actually, but the next class is just crazy lah..4 hrs straight of Autocad, until 5pm!! *Faints...* Somemore, the teacher looks like the taiwanese media joke "Ru Hua", that disgusting girl who likes to put ALOT of makeup and wear stockings on her head, ya that 1, looks like my autocad teacher alot!!

The nightmare isnt over!

Tuesday is another pissed off day, First i had to reach the class by 8am for Odd weeks, mechanics practical class. That teacher is just shit lar..i keep telling my friends later, hes sitting there like a buddha... Because, its our VERY FIRST MECHANICS LESSON, obviously we dont understand a thing!! and straight away throw us into lab and expect us to know how to complete the assignment. Like i said above, hes just sitting there like a buddha, because thats wat he did, instead of coming over and help us. When we asked him question, he can ask you back, "What do you think?" WTF LAH I ASKED U RITE, U ASK ME BACK FOR WAT? IF I KNOW I NEED TO ASK U IN THE FIRST PLACE MEH?! PATHETIC SHIT!! After that i just told my friends lah, can i take the teacher's survey right now for this guy? i am gonna give him the worst possible rating ever, make sure he gets it from the top.

The rest of the days aren't very good also, its week 1 and everybody's mind is still somewhere in the holidays and week 1s are always supposed to be intro week!! rite?

WRONG!! VERY VERY WRONG!!! so far except 1 class, we are having FULL LESSONS, can any1 be more pissed?

Aiya, then today, had to go to my maternal-side ah gong's funeral, its so difficult for me lar. Not many ppl know, infact i think nobody knows this, but since my paternal-side ah gong passed away(whom i still miss everyday..), i kinda developed this ability to well tears in my eyes instantly whenever i think of him.

At this wai gong's funeral, we had to do rituals mah, its so repetitive, thats y i find it difficult. Because, every round of ritual, i will end up struggling to contain my tears, but i find it nearly impossible..Now my eyes are damn pain and like gonna be swollen liao..so sad lar!!!

I am also damn angry..with my cousins, who i didn't spoke to AT ALL, because they are all bastards and bitches. Why? Funerals are supposed to be solemn and sad 1 rite? Guess what, they are busy talking, chatting, fidgetting, laughing and playing away DURING THE RITUALS. I just wanna give them a punch lar really. You dont respect urself nvm..at least pay your LAST respects to your wai gong lar, is it so difficult??...do i have to hurt u until u cry then u can respect him?...

I realli regret alot of things lar..not being close enuff to him, not talking to him very frequently, sometimes even not greeting him when he comes to my house once in a while..Now i can never do it again..never..just the thought of this realli makes me sob

its just so difficult for me to attend funerals lar, even if its not my kin who passed on, i find it very difficult to not think of my ah gong and end up sobbing.

Until now, i have a big headache stuck in my head right now, havent had anything to eat for the whole day, and my knees are shaking now.

Gonna go force myself to eat, take medicine and cry myself to sleep.



Yesterday was all happy. Today, however..is a stark contrast compared to yesterday...

Well, first of all my closests friends got into trouble, some real trouble. And then when i got home, my dad told me my wai gong, mother-side's grandpa, passed away this morning.

When the wave of bad things comes, there is no stopping it, just like a storm.

Yesterday he was fine, he even played a game of mahjong. Then just gone like this this morning. People, can really come and go at a snap of a finger..

Now its happening all over again, when things get too late to say, when things are too late to be done, when the regret knocks on your door, the very door called "Conscience". I feel damn sad i wasn't close to him, hes a joyous soul, always smiling, but i guess he had suffered long enough.

Good bye ah gong..



Hahas, its finally here! My 18th year in existance on this tiny blue planet!! Surprisingly, its quite a memorial day. Let you into my life abit...

My youthful days are..quite mundane and simple, no parties, seldom have any presents nor surprises...When it comes to birthdays..heck..i lost count when was the last time some1 said "Happy Birthday" to me. i am guessing my last was in primary 3, or 4, around there though..
I remember getting a fisherprice pirate ship toy, very nice and big, played with it for years, their pirate figures are very cute too..hehe!
Though its so simple and stuff, i can't complain i guess, i have been leading a blissful life, finally my parents allowed me to get a drum kit, even though its gonna be very noisy, getting this and that. i am already damn fortunate..

Since the beginning i have this feeling..2007 will be a big year for me. And so far it has!, somehow, lols

First is my O lvl results..was thoroughly shocked.
Then i met my 2 wonderful friends, bell and yiqi.
Then, my GPA for sem1 is out, not too shabby.
And, my first ever "Happy Birthday", since i was a kid.

Hahas, now onto the happy parts!

The very first person to wish me, was the lovely BELL!!! =D!!
Though she didn't make it on time at 12am, but shes the closest..12.01am ;)
I am still very touched that she took time out to hit that sms, because its her promos and there are piles of stuff to study! Thank you! muacks.

The 2nd..is YIQI!!! haha, real friends lor! first 2 are my new-made-in-2007 friends!!

Haha, 3rd is my gamer-classmate, eliott, kinda surprised he would wish me though, hehes..

The rest..surprisingly are people i don't expect to wish me, but still, THANK YOU!!!

Heck..my closest friends didn't even know i had a birthday, hahas.., but its alrite.

Hmm, there werent any presents at all, but its ok..i am blessed enough to have friends that care. But i did get money for my debit card application...hehes...Thanks Mummy!

And..i have a cake! wow, its not much, a $5 dollar cake, but still, its a cake!!



To the hell with the diet plan, today its cake!! =D~



so much on my mind yet so little time to accomplish.

gonna go riding again, hope to forget everything



These few days have been weird. Well the weirdest of all is my sleeping periods and timings. Thursday, i think i woke up and had my breakfast at 2pm. But then, i didnt sleep until evening, thats a nap, then till morning 10am i didn't slept a wink, i even went cycling to the rocky alley behind pjc, then to my sch, to take a look.

Haha, i duno wat event it is, but there are alot of P.E teachers i havent seen b4, maybe trainees or something, i duno. Everytime i go riding, i always ride the same route..haha, behind pjc, ride to my sch, ride around it, then come back, maybe visit the shell station near lot1 to pump my tyres, but thats about it..boring man! I want a new bike so my ass dont hurt so much! damnit..

Came home and felt damn famished, even when i was riding i can feel my arms like no more strength..definitely because i havent ate anything for the past 10 hours, yet i went to cycle..haha, courting death i think.

But nvm, back @ home, a piping hot packet of Nasi Lemak is there!yum~...and..strawberry milk! =D my choice of drink after workouts!! ooh the calcium and protein, do your job!

haha..then i watched HP goblet of fire until i fell asleep..only to be awaken by the credits' music, urghs, not even 2 hrs of sleep, and found a sms from MG. Guess wat, he wants to play WoW boardgame today, oh man..i havent had a wink of sleep and this.

I can't complain, really, because its really hard to gather ppl to play this insanely huge game, time conflict ya, and constrains..we started @ 3pm, ended @ 7pm i think, yea, thats how long it takes to play this game, and we arent very far in the game yet, thanks to MG who killed the boss..heh..its certainly very fun, and a good way to just chit chat while you play lor, 3-4 hrs sure got alot of content to talk about everytime..haha!! money well spent~

so tired after they left at around 8pm i think..then..practice abit of guitar first..heehee...but then i fell asleep with it on my chest -.-, woke up in abit and..arghs my ribcage there abit painful, haha! Electric guitars arent light ok...a classical guitar is like..at least 1/5 or even more of an electric guitar's weight! Haha, guitars are so fun...cant stop playing music..no music no life!

After that..it was already 11.30pm i think, by then i am already damn lethargic already, so i dont care anymore, pack up the guitar and crash into bed! until around..3am i woke up, till now, damn fresh man, but its the wrong time to feel fresh..its too early!! Haha, but today is good timing, dont have to specially wake up..hehe coz i have to do something..cannot say here :P

okay i think i am gonna go back and force myself to sleep again..sch is gonna reopen soon, damn! so fast..shit! Or, i think i am gonna read on Photoshopping again..haha! My quest to disfigure people's photos..muhahahaha.....!!!!



Last week of holiday left, time really seems to fly..Heh, this proves my Blink Theory.

Take a time travelling journey back to the start of the holidays, it seems like it was yesterday. "Blink.", u find urself halfway through the holidays already, accomplishing nothing. "Blink." You are left with 4 days before school starts, god its fast.."Blink." You are going to graduate, haha!

Bleah, instead of reminiscing my holidays, lets talk about these past few days..besides sleeping ALOT.

GEMs, or General Elective Modules, is part of the compulsary yet elective modules that SP offers to all students and gives a chance for us to learn something outside our field of study..Say an engineer learning to Paint with watercolours...or a chemist learning to fix his own PC. Haha, i took this chance to team up with my long time buddy, Raymond, and we went for Microbes and Diseases. Interesting course to begin with..heh, not to mention the extremely limited space(only 40, in 1 class), we were god-dammned lucky to be able to get in..hehe..i think its because of my kiasu-ness, thats why we got in. Why?..here goes...

17th sep, 1.59.30PM, 30 secs left to my first registration appointment timeslot..i kept refreshing the browser on "mysas", our sp personal student portal, finally @ 2.00pm sharp, the "Add/Drop Modules" page finally allowed me to add the GEMs modules, quickly, i typed in all the necessary stuff and found that there were only..2 available seats, chiong ah!!! quickly select and selected my class. =), poor chaps, thousands to fight over 1 seat, good luck to u :P!!! bleah..
quickly went to check my timetable, PHEWs..its all set, i am registered =D!

Next day was raymond's turn, i kept nagging to him, 1.59pm u better standby, 10secs before hand start refreshing. He did wat i said, but eventually got laggy, but with a stroke of luck, he got through too!! HAHAHA!!! lalalas~~~ we are gonna be classmates! hoho..another bunch of poor chaps...thousands of students fighting over the remaining 1 seat, and possibly a few more from other appointment dates...HAHA!! neh neh ni poo poo, slowcoaches!

Haha, after this whole GEMs ordeal is over..the mundane life resumes..or so is it? Actually i tried the latest installment of Medal Of Honor, which is Airborne. I am just shocked by its level of ingenuity and design, both gameplay and graphics. Like the name of the game suggests, ur playing as a infranty from the Airborne division in the States' Army. And being an airborne in the WW2 means u will be doing alot of parachuting into the warzone, thats exactly how EVERY single mission starts. You start off in a...Douglas C-47?? i think, and jumps off from there. Now u might be thinking i am crapping, because alot of games actually has a pre-planned starting zone, not for this game. They designed the game to allow u to land ANYWHERE within the playable boundaries of the map, you can land on the huge and tall steeple of a church and play sniper and blasting every soldier's heads, or you could land in the middle of a fight(hope you dont botch the landing) and engage in heated close quarter combats. All the mission objectives do not follow a pre-planned order, thats why ur allowed to land anywhere, because virtually all the objectives are completely in any order of your choice, and then from there, evolve into other objectives(because you need to complete certain stuff first..)

Gameplay aside, the graphics is just stunning, and its not laggy on my monster rig, I have a Core2duo processor overclocked to 2.76ghz, 1gig dual channel Corsair rams overclocked to i think 900+ or 1k mhz(in tandem with the cpu frequency), i cant remember, and the gem of my rig, a gift from my cousin in australia, a Nvidia 8800 GTS(its a gts only though, wished it was a gtx but it was too expensive back then..gts aint cheap either, cost $600+..but its a gift..so..YAY!). Well it might not be the BEST gaming rig u can find, but to me, its more than enough, i can play virtually all, if not most of the latest games with graphical settings set to the max and run it smoothly without much lag, maybe spikes sometimes(because i have other applications running in the back ya..), but i aint complaining!

Okok back to the game, the graphics, is just so nicely rendered, it looks almost real, albeit it still has that unique look and touch of digital-ness. But compared to modern day graphical rendering in games, its top of the line stuff! This is also one of the games that gives me motion-sickness..They had this function called motion blur, which is in effect when look around, or are sprinting. Although i have completed the missions twice in 2 difficulties over the past 3 days, i still have difficulty looking at the screen while sprinting(i have to look elsewhere for abit), because i will get motion sickness and start to have headaches and nausea. Turning it off will ruin the fun, but having it on makes me sick, ah..the irony..haha!

I really applaude EA's effort to make this game the next big thing(it is the next big thing in my heart, its just insane), and they even included "making of" videos of this game, allowing us to see how they produced it, and actually learn from these experts. But then again, i seriously wished they made the game longer...only 6 missions, each maybe lasting 30mins to 1 hr depending on how fast you play it through, it would have made the game even better!!

Haha..thats really wat i have been doing the past few days.

And just an hour ago, i decided to spend tomorrow reading up Photoshop CS3 for Dummies, because i am still a photoshop dummy..haha!! Seriously, i love and respect the power of photoshop, but i lack knowledge on how to utilise it(not even 10% of its powers), i hope that my efforts spent on reading the book can teach me all the necessary stuff that i need to know..and apply to all my future works.

Hehe, but i still love to disfigure people in photoshop..haha!!



Now i feel ironic calling bell "Piggy Bell", because i think i am turning into 1 rite now. haha

Freakish i tell u! Yesterday, i think i slept 14 hrs, but it was not constantly 14 hrs, it was 14hrs of waking and falling asleep, waking and falling asleep again. Guess i just didn't wanna get up, just keep lying in bed...and think.

You know? the bed is a really good place to delve into your own mind and think, think of the past, laughing at urself, thinking of the present, how are things going, thinking of the future, how to plan ahead. I just can't stop.

Weird?



I went to lot 1 recently to pick up "Secret" DVD, that film by jay chou. Watched it once, kinda easy to understand, but its still a great movie. Why? Because it really packs a twist at the end, and its more mysterious and magical and we will ever think it is in the beginning. Well..my post today ain't gonna be about the movie, but rather a book i picked up at popular..

its gonna be long..haha, buckle up!

Its entitled, "The five people you meet in Heaven", on first sight i was like "Wow, cool!" and i immediately picked it up. But its actually a fiction book that really sets me thinking..

Heres how it looks like incase ur interested..hehs



Ok i shall give a review on it, since i finished it..hoho, in 1day+? 213 pages leh =D

It circles around a roughneck named Edward, or Eddie as many ppl call him in the story. Why i say its a strange book, is firstly the title, and how the book starts. Maybe its because i havent been reading enuff book, infact i am quite certain, haha. But the book starts by giving us how much time he has left on earth, kinda shocking for me, but i guess it fits the book. He is a theme park, Ruby Pier's maintenance leader, as i said b4 hes a rough neck, his life basically revolves around fights and wars. But at age 83 hes still working as the maintenance guy. Blah blah blah and hes dead because the Freefall-chair ride got stuck, and his assistant, Dominiquez, follows his command to cut the cable of the ride, but then after some thought Eddie thinks cutting the cable is bad and starts shouting for him to stop, but in vain. End up he got crushed because theres this adorable girl he sees frequently in the vicinity and rushes to save her, but again, in vain. Its not sure if she died.

He gets carried to heaven, and supposes will meet 5 person.
The first guy he meets is a Blueish coloured man, he is a human btw, but because medical advances in that era is poor, i forgot wat illness he got but the doctor supposedly gave him silver nitrate solution as a daily medicine, and the more he took, he blue-er his skin got. One day, eddie ran across the road, i think to get a ball, and a car barely misses him, that car driver, is the blueish man. He managed to avoid him but died of heart attack as a result of the adrenaline rush from the near-accident. Eddie didn't even know him until now, when hes up in heaven, wat this guy is trying to teach Eddie(and us), is that.

"It is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect."
"Strangers, are just family you have yet to come to know."

I find this saying quite profound, but to some extent true. Think, your sir name, like mine, is Chen, and yet there are thousands if not millions of people with the sirname "Chen", they might be strangers but we all know, we are in the same branch of family.

The 2nd guy he meets is..his War captain. It gets a bit weird here because its said that his captain has fury red beads as eyes. so it looks like a skeleton or zombie like guy. The story did touch on the fact that Eddie has a bad leg, a crippled 1, in this part it is revealed that, while escaping enemy capture in Phillipines, he was torching down the huts of the enemies, and supposedly saw a shadow insdie the burning hut, wanting to save the person, he got trapped in the flames and for some reason the captain resort to shooting him, to get him dragged away and to the hospital. The Captain happened to die on the same night, because he stepped on a land mine and got blown to bits.

His lesson to Eddie is that..

"Sacrifice is a part of life. It's supposed to be. It's not something to regret. It's something to aspire to."

This is actually something he say as a result of his outcome. Because he stepped on the landmine, he saved his 4 other team mates because the car wont get blown to bits. Sacrificing himself, for the lives of the others.

Moving on..the third person Eddie meets is..the Wife of the creator of Ruby Pier, the theme park, Ruby. Eddie got confused here because she looks very weird for his era, thats because She lives in the era when Eddie was probably not born or was a little kid. Her role here is to tell Eddie about his Dad, the same dad that he hates for many many reasons..

Since young Eddie is always beaten, scolded, etc etc by his dad. To the extend like his Dad don't even have him in his eyes. He drinks, and smokes, and get drunk, and works at the theme park as the maintenance guy as well. His abusive ways to Eddie is endured, but one day Eddie raised his hands against him as He was about to whack Eddie. From then on they never spoke to each other. Until on Eddie's Dad's deathbed, he wanted to talk to him, because he understood his ways, how he came to "damage children's glass", He didnt have this chance, because the father died. Back in heaven, he actually saw his Dad, but couldn't speak to him as he couldn't hear him. At this point, its actually very sad, because you can see Eddie trying to apologise to him and agrees to let the past go, but his father just couldn't hear.

I kinda relate to his situation, but its to my grandfather, i was disrepectful, a spoilt brat and often shouted at him when he was around, now that hes gone, the chance to apologise is gone, forever. And its actually..very very sad.

Her lesson here is
"Holding anger is like Poison. It eats you from inside."
"We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us."
"But Hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves."

i nearly cried when i learnt wat she meant and with eddie's past with his father, because that was exactly wat i did. I was a angry kid, before i maturised, i was always shouting, like i was a king. Coming to think about it, its really stupid, and i wished i could go back in time to kick my own spoilt ass!!

The 4th person Eddie meets is..His wife, Marguerite. Shes a pitiful soul really. She is very charming and beautiful, and met Eddie when he was a teen. She was ever so concerned about him and everyone, always remembering his birthday and getting Taffys for him. Eventually they got married, but never got a chance to bear a child(i think either 1 is impotent). They resorted to adoption but didn't had the money, until one day Eddie decides to spend some time at the Horse-racing tracks with his co-worker, Noel. Eddie won some money, but got chided by her when he told her the good news. As she is expecting the Orhans's children, having the knowledge that the soon-to-be-adoptive-father is gambling, it would be bad rite! So She drove to find eddie, but because some drunk teens sitting high up on a bridge decides to drop empty beer bottles on the road, one of it hit Marguerite's windshield and she swerves her car around and hit a concrete divider, effectly injuring her and lacerating her liver. Eddie's winnings are eventually spent on her treatment, poof, there goes adpotion. Soon, she died outside the hospital i think, as eddie drove her there, but didnt make it in time, she was 47. They reminisce in Heaven, and heres her Lesson to Eddie..

"Lost love is still love. It takes a different form."
"Life has to end. Love Doesn't."

I think she says all this, so that Eddie can let go, because hes very agonised about her early death, although he still thinks of her, Its a different thing totally. I think this makes sense in real life too..You see some couples, widowed at age and yet refused to remarry, thats still true love, in a different form...

The last person Eddie met is a fillipino girl named Tala. She is actually the "Shadow" eddie saw in the hut back in Phillipines when he was torching down the hut and wanted to save. The captain lied to him, he said there wasn't a soul in there. But infact, Tala was there, burnt to death...
Eddie is pretty much saddened that he couldn't save the person, and upon finding out that there is indeed a person in the hut, and is talking to her right now. He freaks out, yet very remorseful and apologetic. The thing is, Tala doesn't seem to be angry at him at all, and askes him to "Wash her" with a stone, as the scene is set at a beach like area, in the waters. When he tried to wash her, he found that she has transform into her "Burnt" form, terrible burn marks, scalped hair, droopy lips, deformed eyes. But upon washing her, she starts to shed the scars, and is restored to her original form.

Her lesson to Eddie is probably to let go of worldly affairs. You may have caused or done evil deeds, but here in Heaven, its all memories. To proceed, one have to let go.

After understanding it, and receiving the acceptance of apology from Tala. Tala is actually the "Hands" Eddie felt when he was dying, because Tala was bringing him up to Heaven. After that, his spirit began to take off, into the next part of the Heaven, where it resembles a pier, with adults and childrens everywhere, Happily ending the story...

Its actually a very touching story as you go on an emotional roller coaster ride revealling Eddie's life, as a kid, a teenager, a middleaged man, and lastly..an old but hardworking old man..



BIG PHEWS MAN, its like a huge huge stone of burden being dropped from my shoulders. Thank god my friend asked me to call him, or i wouldnt know results are already out beforehand!

Stupid SP, still ask us wait until tml 1.30pm when they actually mailed us our results by 12am tonite..bleah!!!

Haha, guess wat! i scored 3.833 for my GPA!!! OMG! i didnt expected it to be this good, because i was quite afraid of some of the papers i did and thought that i already tou xiao if i can get 3.50! but this! oh man! i am over the moon!!! YAY!~!~

Heres my individual grades for my modules..

Module Code - Credit Unit - Grade
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MS6120 - 4 - A (Fundamental Maths)
MM1016 - 4 - A (Workshop Practice)
MM1305 - 4 - A (Engineering Materials I)
SP0501 - 2 - A (Character Development)
MS6506 - 4 - DIST (Computer Programming) =D
LC0518 - 2 - B (Critical Reasoning Skills)
EE3115 - 4 - B+ (Electrical Technology)

SEMESTER GPA: 3.833
CUMULATIVE GPA: 3.833

=D!!! c++ distinction! didnt expect that though! haha!! but somehow alot of my classmates and friends say i auto dist for c++. Haha there you go! :P

arghs but i aint the highest in my class, highest is 3.917, cool man. But still, we are all so close to the covetted 4.0..better luck next sem! i hope..

Rejoice!



argh i am damn upset wif my body these few weeks lar. First is those irritating ulcers that sprout out when i accidentally bit my lips when chewing, argh how stupid can i get. Open wound in the mouth means its gonna be painful ulcers..and it came in a group..not just one..damnit..

When it just recovered yesterday..today, i had another sore, i duno what caused it but the bottom of my tongue, the bunch of veins there, 1 of the flesh there tore up abit, like a loose flap! HUH how did that happen?! god damnit its so painful i wish i could just take a slicer and slice it off.

I, however, am determined to workout! everyday train bicep curls, situps and pushups! i want to cure my back forever!! And no more sweet drinks! once per week!! grrr!

wish me luck..plenty of it please.



Today was hell of a day, i went cycling to give something to a special friend. It may sound simple but i rode..i think 20km in total, to and fro! haha!! so tired can!! and to make things worse..

When i almost reach liao..the area there's roads are so big, and i am too short to look across to see if theres pavement to ride on..so i hecked care and just rode across...and found theres no pavement -_-", to make things worse i almost kena hit by the stupid car, wtf man i am crossing the damn traffic-lighted road and i noe hes in a hurry to cross the junction, but cannot wait for me to cross first? i was so scared lor, stupid malay driver! grrr!! found that theres no pavement and i dont wann cross back that busy road..so i switched to gear 1 and rode on the grass lor..so damn tiring lah, its so uneven..and i even have to hop over a open drain on my bike, that adds to my tiredness level also lor.....finally i see pavement, and almost reaching the destination.

Haha, passed liao, its time to ride back! oh man..another 10km..and i had a little trouble looking at the map to go back...i was riding down a downhill slope while looking at the map, suddenly i saw infront of me is a giant lamp post, STUPIDLY DESIGNED AND PLACED ON THE MIDDLE OF THE PAVEMENT, too late! i let go of my hands and let my handle bar hit the lamp post, flew side ways and rolled on the soil! Luckily the soil is loose and dry, or i would be realli fk-ed up, just the moment when i sit back up, i received a sms, then just sitting on the soil, i replied lor, then cleaned up(luckily i brought tissue papers..hehe!!).

I wanna thank god theres soil there, and i didnt roll too much, because if i rolled just once more, i would be in the drain already..haha!! Then quickly, i continue to ride and went to the petrol station to get a drink..first drop of water in over 12km lor!! hehe i think in future i can be long distance cyclist liao...provided my ass dont get sore like today...and every other day when i ride for very long..

Only when i reached the petrol kiosk did i found out i cut my ankle, but heng its just a small graze..so i ignored it and let the blood clot lah! then from there..begin my long journey back home...alamak, i hate going back lah!! the pavements are so busy with people, i cant remember i braked how mani times to avoid stupid pedestrians that like to look the other way..

the worst of all is..i got lost -.-!!! even though i have a map, pathetic man!! urghs..ride ride ride until i reached bukit batok west shopping centre! wtf..i dont recall seeing that on the way there leh! shit lah!!!

Suddenly i had a brainwave..my phone has internet access and GPRS~!!~ haha!! lalala streetdirectory.com please~~ and eventually found my way back lor! PHEWS~~~~

felt so good today, i did something i felt very happy that i did, and 20km in 2 hours, wat a feat huh!! argh, so slow!! i need a better bike..shit!



well, the holidays are just shit lah, every day is just damn boring..so i was surfing the web and came to this cool thing..

Embroidery! wow man some of the patterns are just downright cool. so i decided to try during this week..hehe

First day i had to went down to beauty world plaza @ bukit timah to get the embroidery floss, kinda ex if u buy alot at the same time..70cents per skein but lots and lots of colours..its crazy..

Then i found out i needed more...and i am damn lazy to go down to that shop @ bt again..so i tried my luck @ the sewing shop near my house.....and guess what..they have the exact same kind of embroidery floss -.-!!! same design same brand somemore..that france DMC brand..bwahaha!!

BUT they dont nearly have as many colours to choose from..the tone of the colour i needed arent in stock..DAMN!! but nvm...i settle for another tone instead..

and after days of asking at a forum because although they have pictures..i cant seem to figure it out =.=, i finally got the anwser to how to do all the damn knots..argh

The preparation of the strings is already a nightmare...because each design could easily involve 8 to 11 strands..and its after division, so i have to prepare like 4 strings, then fold in half and tie a knot at the top to get 8 strings in total...the initial part is ALWAYS THE HARDEST..because first i have to arrange the string in proper order and then clip them down...then i have to start the knots and determine a starting line for all the other knots..which is also very difficult to gauge..

Did i mention the preparation part? i got so frustrated with 1 skein of thread because it got tangled -.- and i just wanna pull it apart, i pulled very hard, but the threads are much more resilient than i thought..and the threads cut my skin, luckily i let go quick enough..or it will be a deep cut..the weirdest thing is that no blood seeped out, i guess i am damn lucky that no veins or flesh were cut, haha!!!

Finally got the strings done..i followed 1 easy pattern and got this after about 1hr or so.




nice huh! =D~



I am talking about my sister. She is such a pain in the ass lar!!! On so many occasions i had saw her disturbing my cousin, who is only like 4 years old? while she is already 10? She keeps on picking on him and everytime it really pisses me off.

This morning, was the last straw! She had to shout at him to switch off the television, wtf? who does she think she is huh? she is the only one here that watches TV and eats and do homework(which she ALWAYS fail to deliver because of the TV) and she wants him to switch off the tv? Even so, why cant she just tell him, must she always shout?

I just slammed my mouse on the table and flew out and just scold her, scold and scold and scold, not enough, i had a plastic container in my hand, *whack!* i just threw it at her head. Still not enuff, i took the sofa's big pillow and threw at her.

I just hope all this sinks in lar, i dont want scold people, i've scolded enough people in my life and i dont want to repeat those sad past.

Then when i left, she ran to the masterbed room and locked herself inside, not crying definitely, and refusing to do her homework, i bet shes talking to someone in there, well i dont give a damn, she can go and tell my parents, i aint afraid! coz i aint in the wrong in the first place. I dare say, bring it on..see who dies first.