Urgh, the timetable realli makes me sick. Monday is already generally considered the worst day for all students already and they have to make mine worse..though it doesn't starts very early, 10am actually, but the next class is just crazy lah..4 hrs straight of Autocad, until 5pm!! *Faints...* Somemore, the teacher looks like the taiwanese media joke "Ru Hua", that disgusting girl who likes to put ALOT of makeup and wear stockings on her head, ya that 1, looks like my autocad teacher alot!!

The nightmare isnt over!

Tuesday is another pissed off day, First i had to reach the class by 8am for Odd weeks, mechanics practical class. That teacher is just shit lar..i keep telling my friends later, hes sitting there like a buddha... Because, its our VERY FIRST MECHANICS LESSON, obviously we dont understand a thing!! and straight away throw us into lab and expect us to know how to complete the assignment. Like i said above, hes just sitting there like a buddha, because thats wat he did, instead of coming over and help us. When we asked him question, he can ask you back, "What do you think?" WTF LAH I ASKED U RITE, U ASK ME BACK FOR WAT? IF I KNOW I NEED TO ASK U IN THE FIRST PLACE MEH?! PATHETIC SHIT!! After that i just told my friends lah, can i take the teacher's survey right now for this guy? i am gonna give him the worst possible rating ever, make sure he gets it from the top.

The rest of the days aren't very good also, its week 1 and everybody's mind is still somewhere in the holidays and week 1s are always supposed to be intro week!! rite?

WRONG!! VERY VERY WRONG!!! so far except 1 class, we are having FULL LESSONS, can any1 be more pissed?

Aiya, then today, had to go to my maternal-side ah gong's funeral, its so difficult for me lar. Not many ppl know, infact i think nobody knows this, but since my paternal-side ah gong passed away(whom i still miss everyday..), i kinda developed this ability to well tears in my eyes instantly whenever i think of him.

At this wai gong's funeral, we had to do rituals mah, its so repetitive, thats y i find it difficult. Because, every round of ritual, i will end up struggling to contain my tears, but i find it nearly impossible..Now my eyes are damn pain and like gonna be swollen liao..so sad lar!!!

I am also damn angry..with my cousins, who i didn't spoke to AT ALL, because they are all bastards and bitches. Why? Funerals are supposed to be solemn and sad 1 rite? Guess what, they are busy talking, chatting, fidgetting, laughing and playing away DURING THE RITUALS. I just wanna give them a punch lar really. You dont respect urself nvm..at least pay your LAST respects to your wai gong lar, is it so difficult??...do i have to hurt u until u cry then u can respect him?...

I realli regret alot of things lar..not being close enuff to him, not talking to him very frequently, sometimes even not greeting him when he comes to my house once in a while..Now i can never do it again..never..just the thought of this realli makes me sob

its just so difficult for me to attend funerals lar, even if its not my kin who passed on, i find it very difficult to not think of my ah gong and end up sobbing.

Until now, i have a big headache stuck in my head right now, havent had anything to eat for the whole day, and my knees are shaking now.

Gonna go force myself to eat, take medicine and cry myself to sleep.